Forty Four

It’s 12.02am. I have just turned 44. Just like that. Yesterday I was 26, I’m sure of it.

I tried to think of a good rhyme for the new age. Forty Four and not on the floor? Forty Four and a terrible bore? I’ve settled on Forty Four and ready for more.

More what? More of the everyday. I missed the everyday so badly when I was sick. I missed the school runs, the requests for after school snacks while homework was being discussed. I missed the menu planners and the grocery aisle walking. All of these things, are the things I contribute to their lives, feeding them; their tummies, their brains, their souls.

I’m not sure I ever thought I’d get this old, not through a premonition of death, more through a lack of forward thinking. I never imagined this.

As a child and teen, I calculated my age in the year 2000, and could never contemplate 31. I was sure my millennium celebrations would be stagnated by the fact that I was so old.

Forty Four and ready for more.

I want more strength. I want stronger shoulders, a stronger core, stronger legs. There will be swimming this year, and weights. I’m not running anymore. I know it works for others, but it is the kryptonite of my gym experience, sucking my soul with each awkward and lumbering step.

Life is moving to quickly, it’s time to do the things I like. I like exercise that makes me feel good, and lets my mind wander. I like swimming, walking, yoga; exercise that doesn’t make my cheeks jostle and my boobs pound. I want to be stronger. I don’t care about thinner, I am truly at peace with thin – but I want to be stronger.

I want to keep spending time here, right here on this page with you. More time to research and tap away at the keyboard. More time with my head in the thesaurus, and less time avoiding sentences with grammar I’m unsure of.

I do not want more hospitals, more doctors, or more miners of vaginas. I’m done with them for awhile.

I do not want more procrastination. I now have a time frame, a schedule, writing now has its full permission – its place. I no longer fit it in around everything else.

So here we are.

Forty Four and ready for more.

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  1. Happy Birthday Kirsty!! I am sure you will have much more of everything you want and need. I for one, look forward to more of your posts. Happy New Year as well!

  2. Happy Birthdsy and many more happy returns of the day Kirsty
    Wish you and your family a very happy new year too

  3. You go girl. I got my first (and thus far, only) book published at about that age. There’s definitely more to come for you.
    And as for running. I’m with you there. Find something that’s at least remotely enjoyable. Anyway, I hate to tell you this but I remember reading a report saying that for women over 40, running is just not good on a lot of levels – back and knees, not to mention prolapse possibilities. Swimming?

  4. Happy Birthday gorgeous xx

  5. Happy Birthday , Kirsty, many more to celebrate. May 2013 bring joy and laughter, love and hope.

  6. Happy Birthday – and you’ll be amazed how much more there can be.

  7. I love this. What a fabulous motto. I hit 40 this year and am still coming to terms with that little landmark.
    Happy Birthday and Happy and Healthy New Year,
    Love Michelle xx

  8. Happy birthday! I’m 44 in a few days time, and ready for more seems like an excellent attitude to take into that experience.

  9. Happy birthday! I like your mantra – ready for more. I also like your goal of being strong this year. Me too. I told my girls the other day that 2013 is for mummy to be strong and fit. Do it!

  10. Happy birthday Kirsty. x


    I turn 60 in less than 2 months … gotta rhyme for me? (Now I sound like Simon & Garfunkle … feeling groovy!)

  12. Happy Birthday!!! I am only a year behind you and def wast to give swimming a go this year 🙂 All the best 🙂
    Wendy xo

  13. May u have many more blessed years ahead. x

  14. I’m turning 40 next year, so this was great for me to read. Swimming is so wonderful–in the winter here in Minnesota I swim in pools, but all summer long I am in warm, glorious lakes, and all winter I dream about them. 🙂

  15. Wishing you a wonderful Birthday and year! S x

  16. 44? You’re in the prime of your life. Happiest of birthdays to you. Lovely blog.
    Thanks for sharing.
    Bella xx

  17. Happy Birthday! Bring on more at 44!

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